Of Weeping and Mourning

People who wish you well, want you to be fine, always.

Yes, “I am fine”, is more convenient for everyone.

But is that how Life plays out?

Is there not a time to weep and a time to laugh?

For those that notice the times of weeping, would you leave them to the symptoms or can trust them with the cause?

Or would you rather go to your closet and ‘wrestle’ it out with your creator?

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Emotional Wahala…….

Emotion left on her own will depreciate someday While alive and in flames it seems as if you’ll be consumed if you don’t express her or the other party doesn’t react in the desired direction. She can bear many children ranging from flings to crushes to outright obsession and sometimes Love. Emotion on her own is healthy and she keeps the engine of relationships running. The kind we speak of in this note is when she ain’t mutual (or seemingly so). Emotion in this context: a state where your blood literally jumps out of your veins at the mention or sight of anything that concerneth the igniting party. Where you wait by your phone literally praying that a call comes in or you refresh your inbox like a gazillion times expecting an unsent message. Truth is, we have no control over these emotions; we don’t solicit for her birth. She just comes upon us suddenly. The only way out is managing her by putting her where she belongs. Oh yes there are solutions even if

You make me wanna write a poem

I'm sure thoughts of you have crossed my mind a gazillion times in the last 6 days I wonder why! When i met you i began to have a secret crush on you ( i wish i knew how successful i was at the 'secret' bit) then you fell in love. I managed myself & depreciated my crush back to platonic levels. We have done well as platonics and i have always imagined it to remain at that level. All of a sudden thoughts of you begin to flood my mind It scarces me I'm forced to put my thoughts on paper Logically, I dont want anything exceeding platonic levels because going by head sense, you dont strike me as my soul mate Yet, the thoughts keep coming, i dont know what to do with them. I wonder if thoughts of' 'us' have ever crossed your mind. Trust me, i wouldn't sacrifice our friendship for these temporal feelings of mine Hopefully, my soulmate will show up before any 'damage' is done. 'Jan '09

Still in tears

I knew it wasn’t right. Personal values, societal values and all the works, I didn’t let us grow. We kept it platonic (difficultly so). Our hearts wanted more. Our heads knew better. Only space and time can heal us. I’m utmostly grateful for your THERENESS, Your openness, your romance, your consistency and your maturity. I did it for your clan, for my man for myself & for you. When we meet in future, because I'm sure we will, We’ll catch up on our phases. I will miss you sorely. Still in tears.

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