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Emotion left on her own will depreciate someday While alive and in flames it seems as if you’ll be consumed if you don’t express her or the other party doesn’t react in the desired direction. She can bear many children ranging from flings to crushes to outright obsession and sometimes Love. Emotion on her own is healthy and she keeps the engine of relationships running. The kind we speak of in this note is when she ain’t mutual (or seemingly so). Emotion in this context: a state where your blood literally jumps out of your veins at the mention or sight of anything that concerneth the igniting party. Where you wait by your phone literally praying that a call comes in or you refresh your inbox like a gazillion times expecting an unsent message. Truth is, we have no control over these emotions; we don’t solicit for her birth. She just comes upon us suddenly. The only way out is managing her by putting her where she belongs. Oh yes there are solutions even if

I ain’t of many words…………yet I have decided to blog I pride myself in being ‘Ruth’ & a hopeless romantic……..yet I’ve never been in any serious relationship Need an intense course on relationship management…….yet I have a number of faithful friends Avoid going for parries…..but mine tends to be full I’m never shy or scared but my voice shakes terribly when I address a mass audience I’m God crazy but not church crazy I need some fat but have become addicted to a healthy diet …….bla bla bla!!!!!

The sound of your name ignites fire in my bones How can a mere man like me live with such high standards? In my years on this planet (apart from my Lord Jesus), I have not met any man so great. The anthology of your writings changed my life forever. You placed demands on your life that I haven’t heard of in my existence. Your theme of truth and non-violence, of love and self sacrifice, of common good........ You walked your talk 100%, Oh what height of Integrity! In your imperfections you still tried to remain true to yourself & your God Your focus was on things that mattered on this side of the planet…the essentials…sound principles! I have never wished I met any ‘hero’ like I wish I met you You are truly my Hero! Heard of great men but none like you Oh the power of the inner voice and self sacrifice…. I surely cannot put it better than Dr Martin Luther King Jnr “Gandhi was inevitable. If humanity is to progress, Gandhi is inescapable……We may ignore him at our own risk”

I'm sure thoughts of you have crossed my mind a gazillion times in the last 6 days I wonder why! When i met you i began to have a secret crush on you ( i wish i knew how successful i was at the 'secret' bit) then you fell in love. I managed myself & depreciated my crush back to platonic levels. We have done well as platonics and i have always imagined it to remain at that level. All of a sudden thoughts of you begin to flood my mind It scarces me I'm forced to put my thoughts on paper Logically, I dont want anything exceeding platonic levels because going by head sense, you dont strike me as my soul mate Yet, the thoughts keep coming, i dont know what to do with them. I wonder if thoughts of' 'us' have ever crossed your mind. Trust me, i wouldn't sacrifice our friendship for these temporal feelings of mine Hopefully, my soulmate will show up before any 'damage' is done. 'Jan '09

This principle states that in accepting the strengths of a person we should equally accept the related weaknesses. It indicates that every man that has a strength would also have a weakness that is likely closely related to the strength. A person who is very meticulous and detailed will most likely be petty & 'naggy' One who is easy going, playful and easily forgiving will most likely be carefree and laid back A sanguine sanguine who is usually very charismatic and eloquent may be a bad listener and the list goes on and on. So if you like the sanguine, manage the not-so-perfect listener. If you like the the meticulous and organisation freak, manage the petty nag  If you like the peaceful, nice and easy going person, manage the not soo detailed part.   ...............because its usually a Complete Package.

In my first year here, Jaundice and a Humpty Dumpty experience on the staircase almost sent me back to my maker but 25 years have passed and I’m still standing strong. In 25 years…..   • I have learnt God as my Source and the only being I should place a demand on for joy, fulfilment and well being.  • I have fallen in love with Two words; Love and Live.   • Live:            (1) the expression of your convictions and beliefs.            (2)The act of not selling your soul for acceptance by men who themselves are seeking                        acceptance.   • I have met great people   • I’ve had an intense relationship with Acne  • I realise that virtue isn’t measured by how you treat your friends but how you treat the average man you come across   • Oh the Peace that comes when we focus on things of eternal value, the Rest that comes when we birth God’s will on this planet.  25 years of pain and joy, failure & success, fear & boldness, pessimism & optimism.  25 years of lear

because i live alone  because i'm tired of boring my friends  because i'd always wanted to blog for the love of self expression   welcome to my world!!!