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Sin and I

Sin is my claim to my right to myself.

Sin is me trying to be God.

It is a disposition.

 

A disposition that does not acknowledge that I am only the breath of God and dust.

A disposition to live by my own terms, and not on the terms of the God who created me.

The disposition of sin is not limited to immorality and wrong-doing.

It is the disposition of self-realization – I am my own god!

I can do things, the way I want!

 

The good news is that God sent His son to take that disposition away.

The disposition of wanting to do things my way - as if I created myself and put myself on this planet.

Another sweet part is that once I acknowledge that God owns me, and I agree to live on His terms,

His Spirit begins to work righteousness in me.

He does the work, on my inside.

He has no respect for my temperament or preferences.

He takes over my life, completely!

 

But can you imagine the creator of the world taking over your life?

Can you imagine the possibilities? The sheer beauty?

It still gets better 😊 - He loves me far more than I can ever love myself.

His plans for me are much better than the plans I have for myself; including the not-so-easy bit.

My new disposition is to come as a mere conscious human, surrendering everything I have or am, to Him.

 

 

‘Funmilayo Akinwale

Largely inspired by My Utmost for His Highest by Oswald Chambers (October 5)

06.10.2020

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